Divorce is one of those ubiquitous topic that I never actually talk about because I'm used to it now. Sure as a kid it's really hard to satisfy both your parents when you're stuck with one. This is what we called 'The perks of being a broken home kid.'
Generally,I do think divorce and misunderstanding with my parents are the things that affects me in my real life. I know it took me a long time to realize that some of my behaviours,emotional responses and automatic beliefs were a byproduct of growing up in a broken household. I have a diffimcult time with the emotional repercussion of being without a person.
When I was in primary school I always shuffling back and forth from Mummy's house to Babah's house. I don't understand why do I need to shuffling around. I'm not older enough yet to understand that kind of situation. I always wondering when I will see Babah again. As time goes by Babah remarried and built his new lives.
As I get older,I learnt to appreciate people when they are out of sight. When I was in secondary school I do have thought that I don't want to get attached to anyone because once I get attached I may get hurts.When I shared my stories with my flowers they said that I'm brave enough to live as a broken home kid but for me this is way I survive.
I couldn't think that this divorce would affects me this much. I'm always being emotional when someone talks about their parents. I always wanted things back as normal but it can't. Someone said this to me "Be strong Nurina! Let bygones be bygones. Everything happens for a reason." When I think about it again it hits me like a bolt of lightning.
From now on I have to let go this misconceptions that I have something to do with this divorce. I strongly believe both my parents will continue to love me because I'm the only daughter in the family.
Generally,I do think divorce and misunderstanding with my parents are the things that affects me in my real life. I know it took me a long time to realize that some of my behaviours,emotional responses and automatic beliefs were a byproduct of growing up in a broken household. I have a diffimcult time with the emotional repercussion of being without a person.
When I was in primary school I always shuffling back and forth from Mummy's house to Babah's house. I don't understand why do I need to shuffling around. I'm not older enough yet to understand that kind of situation. I always wondering when I will see Babah again. As time goes by Babah remarried and built his new lives.
As I get older,I learnt to appreciate people when they are out of sight. When I was in secondary school I do have thought that I don't want to get attached to anyone because once I get attached I may get hurts.When I shared my stories with my flowers they said that I'm brave enough to live as a broken home kid but for me this is way I survive.
I couldn't think that this divorce would affects me this much. I'm always being emotional when someone talks about their parents. I always wanted things back as normal but it can't. Someone said this to me "Be strong Nurina! Let bygones be bygones. Everything happens for a reason." When I think about it again it hits me like a bolt of lightning.
From now on I have to let go this misconceptions that I have something to do with this divorce. I strongly believe both my parents will continue to love me because I'm the only daughter in the family.
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