1 Sept 2015

Broken Home Kid

Divorce is one of those ubiquitous topic that I never actually talk about because I'm used to it now. Sure as a kid it's really hard to satisfy both your parents when you're stuck with one. This is what we called 'The perks of being a broken home kid.'

Generally,I do think divorce  and misunderstanding with my parents are the things that affects me in my real life. I know it took me a long time to realize that some of my behaviours,emotional responses and automatic beliefs were a byproduct of growing up in a broken household. I have a diffimcult time with the emotional repercussion of being without a person.

When I was in primary school I always shuffling back and forth from Mummy's house to Babah's house. I don't understand why do I need to shuffling around. I'm not older enough yet to understand that kind of situation. I always wondering when I will see Babah again. As time goes by Babah remarried and built his new lives.

As I get older,I learnt to appreciate people when they are out of sight. When I was in secondary school I do have thought that I don't want to get attached to anyone because once I get attached I may get hurts.When I shared my stories with my flowers they said that I'm brave enough to live as a broken home kid but for me this is way I survive.

I couldn't think that this divorce would affects me this much. I'm always being emotional when someone talks about their parents. I always wanted things back as normal but it can't. Someone said this to me "Be strong Nurina! Let bygones be bygones. Everything happens for a reason." When I think about it again it hits me like a bolt of lightning.

From now on I have to let go this misconceptions that I have something to do with this divorce. I strongly believe both my parents will continue to love me because I'm the only daughter in the family.

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