Hola Hola

Assalamualaikum and hello.

Hi! 

I know I am horrible at keeping this blog updated, though I kept telling myself to blog to document what has been going on with my life. But let's just agree to the fact that I always do the opposite of what I am supposed to do. Forgive me for my absence for almost a year and two months, but I have been very busy going on incredible adventure ever since I landed at this remote place named Tembila, Besut.

So here are some updates on my life:

1) I am currently in my second year of my degree life.

2) I made a lot of friends and my networking are getting bigger. I got the opportunity to attend NALS 2018.

3) I think I have grown a lot. I remember crying on the first week in Tembila because I still unsure about the course I am taking but yeah looking back on how much I have grown, I cannot help but to pat myself on the back. It is true that living on your own transform you into a more responsible person. I never imagined  myself would be paying my own bills and managed my own money. Yes, I paid my own bills now. ( of course with the supervision from my mom but from afar) I DID IT GUYS! I felt awesome doing those stuff on my own.

4) I learned that I started to love nature. I admitted that I am city girl to my core, a place where I feel most comfortable. I have spent almost two years here at UniSZA which surrounded with nature and I have noticed that nature does wonders to the soul. It gives you the freedom to be yourself! No doubt nature heals and help us to live lives of meaning and joy.


More stories soon.

New Year Resolutions

Assalamualaikum and hellloooooo 2017.

How was your new year celebration yesterday? Mine was having post-birthday dinner with the fam at my grandma's house. So that is how I celebrated. New year comes with new resolutions. Here are my resolutions for twentyseenteen :

1. To get fit and healthy (exercise more). Last year, I tried to do the 30-Day Plank Challenge but it was total failure! I managed to do it till day 7 and then I stop coz its getting harder and harder. I think I gonna do it again this year. Urm maybe not. Hahaha.

2. To cook more and eat clean. Nothing better than home-cooked food. Actually cooking is fun! Dah 20 ni kenalah pandai masak.

3. To BLOG more. Its really get hard to blog everyday with my hectic life as a degree student. But ya I will try to blog everyday because I do not want that "I should write about that" come across in my mind coz I hate that moment. Hahaha.

4. To care about myself more. 2016 was a bad year for my skin because my skin got super duper sensitive. My skin started to flare up. Ooh I should take care of my skin care routine.

5. To engage in more programme. NALS 2017 is coming up! I really wanna join in because last year I had no chance to join it due to my hectic matriculation life..

Ok those are a lot already.

May Fatin Nurina have a great year in 2017!

A Little Update On Life

Assalamualaikum and hello.

It has been so long since I wrote anything on this blog so I guess it is the best option to write about how life is treating me for the past few months of my absence.

First and foremost, I am pursuing Biotechnology for degree. For your information, I am still unsure about the course and I am in the process of accepting it, so we will see how it goes. It is scary how fast the time flies, but life didn't stop for anybody so yeah.

Second. I have developed a new love for makeup! I have started wearing makeup last year but before that I know a lil bit of this and that about makeup. I started to really love makeup because it just makes me feel confident and I want to groom myself better.

Third, I got my eyes on one person and no one else to be honest. I will write an update on that when something actually happens.

That is all for now. Have a lovely day, people.

Hello There!

Assalamualaikum and hello.

It has been months since I wrote anything on this blog. I know by now you'd think that I am the worst at blogging because 1) keeping up with this blog is struggle for me and 2) I suck at writing. Yes I am! But anyhow, I will try to post as frequently as possible now, because I thought that it would be nice to share my pumpkin plantation project with you guys since I am biotech student now.

I am writing this because I have got no time to post an update probally because I have been busy or I have been procastinating. We will never know.

I will try to stay committed to this blog from now on, so do expect more coming from this blog of mine. I will blog more on my pumpkin planting project on next update.

See you in the next post!

What If?

What If I die today?
Will you be sorry for your lost?
What If the sun didn't shine anymore?
Would things be the same?
What If I go to sleep and never wake up again?
Will people weep my going?
What If today was my last day?
Would I live each moment like my last?
What If these words are  real?
Would you be lost?

No One

No one will understand how much pain I going through no matter how hard I try to explain because I am the one who suffering not them. 

Am I choosing the right path?

Do I choose the right path?

I have been thinking about this a lot lately. Am I choosing the right path? Am I doing the right thing? What if it isn't?

I'm scared. I am totally scared. A few months ago I received a letter saying I was chosen to study in Penang Matriculation College. I saw this as the last opportunity for me to pursue in Medicine as I wanted to be a doctor. But that was before I doubted what I really wanted to do in my life.

I do not know what I want! I just do not know. Actually I wanted to be a doctor since I was in kindergarten. But now I am kinda doubt with myself.

I stared at my Maths books and I was thinking about my friends having good results and they are doing great with their studies. Excelling their quizes, tests, examinations and of course getting 4 flats.

This might not be a big deal for you guys but it is for me. I hate seeing what the others get. I hate seeing when I did not get full marks in my quizzes and test as I do not learn anything in the lectures and tutorial. Plus, I hate having to explain to people how I am doing with my studies. It is getting worst when my cousins thought that I was doing great with my studies and teasing to be a doctor because no one in Babah's family being a doctor. My late grandpa once said to me that he wanted to see me as a doctor when I 25 years old.

Now I am barely surviving with my studies. One day I was thinking what if I just go to Law School as mummy want or go to Kelantan and studying Statistics. I knew she wants the best for me, to get good education and qualifications, to have a decent job, to live a grand life. But I was so stubborn I still pick the rocky road. I thought matriculation is goods for me but it seems not or it just me feel like that? Uhm I don't know. I fuggin don't know!

Afina once said to me that "Don't judge yourself by numbers. Allah always give what is the best for us." I might chosen the wrong route but I have to get out by going forward because the beginning is always the hardest.

Word of Wisdom That Speaks to Me

Assalamualaikum peeps.

I love word of wisdom as it can affect me for a lifetime. Here are some that speaks to me and hopefully they speak to you too:

1. For indeed, with hardship will be ease. Indeed, with hardship will be ease. - Ash Sharh [94:5,6]

This verses would be my favorite verse in the Al-Quran which I hold on to every time I feel like to give up, especially during examination when I get stressed out. During my 2 years in SMAPL, I wrote this verses on a piece of paper and I attached it to the my locker's door.

2.  Allah doesn't burden a soul except with what within its capability. - Al-Baqarah [2:286]

Another verse from the holu Quran that helps me every time I feel like my problem is big and don't how to handle it. It just calm me down knowing that Allah is testing my oatience and He knew that I'm capable of surviving whatever it is He had given.

3. " It's not who you are that holds you back. It's who you think you are not. - Denis Waitler.

4. We all get stressed at times. It's part of life, part of Allah's test and infact, it is said that He tests those He loves most. - Anynomous.

There are actually more but I couldn't think of any else now. 

Something I struggle with

Before I begin writing what I struggle with, let me clarify that keeping up with this challenge is also a struggle I’m facing right now. *questions why I put myself in trouble* I should post this entry on 8th November of 2015 but I was too busy back then.

There were times when I thought that I just suck at doing something, but after times of trying, I managed to master it.Among of those struggles, there are still some that I haven't managed to overcome until today. One of them is my handwriting.

I am normal human being but my handwriting probally looks like chicken scratch scrawled at completely random angle. There was a time I felt pretty down about how pitiful my handwriting is. I just wondered how can people have such perfect handwriting. I wish my handwriting was perfect just like the others.

I am putting effort into this day by day and I hope that there will come a day where I can write perfectly. Hopefully with enoufh practice perhaps. For now, I'm taking baby steps.Wish me all the best!

10 songs I'm loving right know

1. Sing For You - Exo

2. Infinity - One Direction

3. Perfect - One Direction

4. Love Yourself - Justin Bieber

5. Dream - Suzy and Baekhyun

6. Youth - Troye Sivan

7. Colors - Halsey

8. I Hate That I love You - Gnash ft. Olivia O'Brien

9. Clocks - Coldplay

10. Unfair - Exo